New Year's Resolution

I haven't written on here in awhile. I am on my way to a better me. My new year's resolution was to live, laugh, and love as well as work on my problems. I have 21 years of problems just lurking and waiting for me to deal with them. I decided I was fed up with who I was trying to be and that I wasn't dealing with what I needed to. I kept wanting to be someone else. Instead I needed to accept who I was for me and work on being the better me instead of someone else's better them. It is going to take awhile to deal with. I mean 21 years of problems won't be fixed in a year. It may even take 3 or 4 years or more. But I am willing to work on it as long as I have to. I want to love myself. I want to be me. I lost that somewhere along the way and now I am starting to gain it back. I know I don't really have my life figured out yet but God knows. I try to trust Him and understand as best I can why things happen. I don't understand why my father had to be taken or my sister and I not even talking or having the cards I had dealt to do great things for Him but I know He has a good reason. I am ready and willing to learn and be guided in the right direction. I know that it took me to hit rock bottom to figure all this out and figure out what I needed and wanted to do. I hate that had to happen in order to know what to do but I am glad I figured it out. I grew from hitting rock bottom. Sometimes you need to in order to get back up, brush yourself off, and persevere through the pain. Plus it doesn't hurt to have the Big Guy Upstairs to help you out. I just always go back to the verse Matthew 11:28 which is "Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Thank goodness we don't have to do this on our own. I don't think I would make it. There is also this verse in Proverbs that talks about to not lean on our own understanding but to give it to God and He will make your paths straight. This is something I hold on to dearly. I don't always understand but if I just trust and have faith that God will help or help me through then I can survive. HALLELUJAH!! It isn't easy to deal with all of this but in the end I will be a better person for it and I will truly be on my way to do these great things God has planned for me! So watch out world, here comes Liz ready to change the world!! :D